The spirit of a decentralized, the day I have less entangled, perhaps I'm lonely too long, so it is easy for others and their own illusions it. No matter the world, much ado about it, perhaps I want to the bar.
all right when I will learn with the guitar King City, King City's guitar playing is good, he likes to Wang Feng and Xu Wei of the song, sing the sometimes unruly, , epoch of his career, and maybe your heart, you have not experienced life more helpless,
guitar King City each bounce, the eyes always across a trace of tenderness, I know, he is also thought of his girlfriend. Photo of he and his girlfriend had been on his bed, on several occasions, I saw holding the guitar in front of King City photos daze, I stood silently at the door, do not know of the infatuation for him to sigh for better or bad, temporary, and always help him sighed softly closed the door and let him immersed in his own space, to not just thoughts.
promises, every day seventy-eight sent me text messages every day or two would give me a call and casually chat about anything, I deliberately avoid the initial two days to pick up her phone, the transferred into a vibrating cell phone, let it ring, and few messages back. But then I do not humane, they received, and promises, talk about the weather as friends, East West talk about the dinner, gradually, I let my guard, no longer feel that their promises, risks, and have actually felt bored, and even sometimes cents unconscious touch mobile phone, if not for her cell phone text messages, and my heart will be charged to some nameless loss.
we just idle chatting, until their respective hung up the phone when something happens, after each call, I do not know why they feel the good will of some. Sometimes she would suddenly appear at my house, always holding hands some food, saying that as a friend, promising to improve the lives of my rights, I am afraid I will not be her only exposure to cold at the door, simply with was the key to her, after she got the key here, the frequency of my increasingly more up, but she always came in most of the night like a ghost in front of me as You Youran's blown, I can not stand a little bit, but over time get used to it, I think there are promises, such a friend, and perhaps also good.
2 month, near the end of the holiday, and too small in the day, the boss made a salary, gave us each a red envelope, he said: , taking advantage of the holiday, you some good rest at home for years after the busy preparing.
trapped by their own colleagues in the company, holiday, suddenly did not trouble to do, I just feel empty, my heart. New Year approached, parents rarely think of more clothes, then went to the mall, bought two of their own pieces. To buy clothes, chubby to the phone, said squad leader wanted to engage in sub-class reunion, 26 years, to go go, can not go to the not forced, chubby asked me to go, I say go, graduated half a year I would also like to look at from morning till evening the students had had four years.
25 years, King City holiday, he packed his things ready to go home, told: This, if bored, will be on the net, or go to my house to take guitar playing, or you go to their promises, that, I think she very good people, not wealthy lady's temper, but also takes good care of you.
exclaimed my heart is really a fairy promises, even just graduated less than two years also did not miss the little boys, too kind indeed.
to 26 years, I said site by chubby, went to that hotel. Walking on the road, I think Teng words will not come, if met her, I say something, or like an ordinary friend, say hello even. Not better, one would like to heart trouble.
I went to the hotel, the waiter took me to find my room, I opened the door, and discovered that seven or eight students already have a heap is trouble, see me in, they all in the line of sight Go to my body, stunned at first two or three seconds, and then up to roughhouse with me. To meet long-lost classmates, seems to be back on campus just past times, we laughed, clamor, as if the pressure of life has never appeared in our body in general.
the next half hour, the students most in attendance, chubby also came and sat next to me and laughter with other students, Fang Mingbo also, took me to ask the West to ask the East Q, I try to keep a distance from him in order to avoid misunderstanding. Squad leader said:
said the devil. Squad leader, then just a floor, Teng statement appeared, the students are laughing, I smiled, looked at Teng words, she pretty much became a jumbo hot hair, a pair of mobile eyes clear, and fell The following well-trimmed eyebrows, a fierce looked like an angel falling to earth.
Teng made before and some students greeting, and then sit on my left, quietly holding my hand, I want to withdraw to open, and reluctant, and only let her hold.
Man have to almost, squad leader, said: Other dishes are up, the squad leader carrying beer, stood up and said:
we drank, then, is the brighter of some long-winded Guikulanghao, we drank wine, and saying things happened the past six months, some bitter, some frustration, some depression, but also Some dream.
squad leader said: Now I see my relatives at home to bad cop, that I do well in the insurance, but I quit doing the insurance I went to ah? This acquaintance is limited, the task can not finish or have to pull people to their running, you have to touch a Good point, will be more polite to put you out, to touch a bad, can truly suffered, and in time you do not say, but also ridicule you about it, say you are a liar, you see me this nerve Is not become thicker than the walls are? Circle, you can not draw on the firm side, the customer confound right and wrong, you have to follow the stag a horse, I have to say that it was deer, become, they do not sign the bill with you, you have no commission, you go this month Hexibeifeng, I did half of home improvement, more and found this line very sick country, ah die die must be changed to be changed, eyes closed, to be a dream Ah I are going to change to change, almost into a nervous breakdown a.
Fatty said: customers to much money, can be a lot of problems, an old man to do that day to the bill, he asked me to do at the end of green, and I as he did, he said the next day I did not make you blue? how do you to broke a green? you do not know, I was the breath, until this old man wanted to throw out the dogs.
Fangming Bo said: her hair is not less? are by them to worry, I wonder, since they are so many ideas, but also to design the company designs ass, out of their own not to become directly Jinong? also my General Manager all day, press the little girl cast a glance, I can understand his lust, but he would not have it so blatantly? Grab several times more than the class, plus eat normally used to buy materials, four years down, everyone would take at least a seventy-eight million, which information is cast into, can be an out of school, stupid This community did not even stay in your child the profession. Now, I looked fine arts to persuade the children to study music, if your house is not particularly wealthy, do not learn this stuff, the art of music things, unless you are a noble , or to special talented, we ordinary people can not afford school ah. But they were not listening, say can not afford to learn it from school, first admitted to a university to say, but his mother out of this university have on the birds with, ah, liberal arts school can be a secretary at least civil service examination, to learn art of music? I a female student is now studying music at the bar all day running field day on the job during the day and sleep all day long black day and night reversed not say from time to time have to deal with those who pervert, I'm angry ah, all this, the school has annual enrollment, enrollment has barely said integrated classes in the past, your enrollment can be art by bird? have enrollment necessary? enrollment to enrollment it, can you point to lower tuition fees, ah, you see we the country these many art institutions, there are several tuition down more than one million? Oh, and consequently did not say, and then how to say, we learn sports than strengths, Ya I High school sports which rely on four-year university students are out of the muscle training people in the factory anti-sack it. I can not find work after graduation, and later on, and a child to do the art exam buddy classes, I began to think that the fine arts of so many art classes should do a very good money, then thousand learned not earn this money, first, we did not does not matter the background, drawing less than students, finally pulled and had to play around points, the requested that an officer of the teacher to eat drink, have to always guard against bullies came to give you trouble, finally earned Liang Qian, who also have hit his mouth, and I decided, years after these students finished other professional I taught a class no longer his mother was killed.
students C, said: saw the child nervous twitch.
D students, said: and do three months, and now these days, is not the man I met who could a McCain McCain, and sometimes after I thought, ah, how the hell I am now become so popular, people would see the hell people say that nonsense, and that innocent little boy was going out? The sad only you know, institutions are not so good, which is always a group of a group, especially the delicate relationship between colleagues, some people look nice to you, you can poke a knife in the back of this is common, I have nothing to drink tea in the unit on the confusion, I considered why this is, ah me. F
students, said: coming to 1800, students, and 1800 should be not less right? that was in Shenzhen, ah! I eat and drink his mother removed to remove the rent is not a penny left end of the month, the typical paycheck to paycheck, not people stay in Shenzhen to children, even had to run to a toilet, Renzaitaxiang for the stranger, unfamiliar, who did not dare to offend, with the wronged and the blood can only break the teeth in the pharynx to the stomach, I was thinking back to it years later . G
students, said: can not say, sometimes I thought, I'm done, not by the crime, and if they had in their entire life, simply find a rich man to marry a bar, but his mother these days are looking for rich rich Yes, I went even a rich man's leg touches the feet did not have those, what kind of drama Cinderella marry Prince Charming, will play in the stick inside twitched, 忽悠 kids play. am I to understand, like we were not stable so no money, no work of Cinderella, and even a mule can not find it, also find Heilv Prince, Zhi Buding or lame.
... ...
said their students have their own difficulties, each made with their own vent, I suddenly found the monitor out the significance of this gathering, a lot of things, we can not tell my colleagues that can not told his parents that only simmering, endured until the people who want to see, can say only people who spit it out together. We lived together for four years, with four years alone, inexperienced among us, just the best to talk to each other object.
squad leader asked me:
like I jokingly said: I also made a statement.
we all laughed, Teng speak with a smile attached to my shoulders, her nose and rubs up against my ear, I felt startled, not dare to move, but also ignored the smoke palms sweat , waves, and to take all night. Teng made from the door to the present, we have not spoken to drink in addition to a bite she would let go of my hand, rest of the time, my hand has been holding her, Teng words may feel damp from my hand, open my palm, rub out a paper towel, then naughty smile, closing her hand, with my fingers entwined. Cultivate the understanding along four years, let me know, I care about Teng words, as I care about her. My heart is suddenly so quiet, just want to freeze this moment in time, let us hold hands to keep on going, from the black hair flying, shook his hoary.
In this country, some of the girls is not uncommon intimacy with each other, so I never worried about this little affair between us will be found in other students.
chubby patted my head and said:
Fangming Bo go along with, old-fashioned, said:
is surrounded by a burst of laughter, Fang Mingbo like me, this is not a secret a secret, we all know, so he said, the students began to play a coax, and I want to hate straight Fang Mingbo mouth tore. Teng words of discontent followed laughing, I pinched a little harder in her hand a bit, did not want her to laugh but more fiercely.
After a while, the squad leader asked what had made Teng, Teng made first look squad, and then looked at me, holding my hand tight a tight, back of my index finger gently Mosa Zhao She smiled slightly, his face vortex disappeared the pear,
squad leader nodded, then said a few words, and Teng, and then from alcohol and other students to fight, they fight for a few, I feel boring, they then expand the scope of the students throughout the room no one escape, are poured down a lot of wine. Monitor appears to be some drunk, he took the bottle, shake and said: great painter, but I now run this great painter insurance, I now ask for less, and I would not at home, and I just on the line when the little painter, who can give me a chance ah? said: , even if the dream is gone, let's really get totaled out.
Yes ah, at least, we still have a dream. I felt a bit dizzy head, then release the hand made Teng, walked to the window and let in the wind, Teng words followed me over, she stood by me, the faint asked: Teng made
I looked at, this endless miss my face now just around the corner, her lashes long, thick, soft coverage in the eyelids, she is so familiar and so strange, sometimes friendly, sometimes far away. Besides thinking of you I want to say, everything is pretty good. But the words to the mouth, but swallowed it, only responded with a smile, then silence. After the meeting of 24 students, the sky is already dark, we drank a lot of each other with walking arm in front of the hotel,UGGs, we hugged each other goodbye, but do not know this separation, see you will go to when, if you can Goodbye, is also bare voice like today is unknown.
Teng took my words to go on the road, I asked her:
Teng
I made hand in hand, walking silently on the road, the north wind blowing whining, shivering Teng made a statement, I take off his scarf around her neck, feeling Teng made scarves, laugh at me blankly, and I rubbed her hair, he gets her hand, and walked, everything is so natural, as if this the case.
road, Teng made the work asked me tired, and I said fine, she asked me if I had to find a boyfriend, I did not reply, only looked day, the night dark and stormy, the stars seem to have been frozen.
words that I brought to the shelter Teng Teng, first looked at some words, and then lean on me and asked: Shige has a holiday home.
Teng made some of the complex looked at me, , but also put some eggs, put a cabbage, ah?
, silly.
live in my shoulder, hoarsely, and some confusion, said: good to me, but you, I can not find a second good to me, I am also willing to accept his good people to me,UGG boots clearance, and I always know, really know of.
That's enough, my heart is full of air down it, holding Teng words, about what touched her hair, the smell of her hair, is like summer flowers and butterflies in the bushes play is so happy.
been a long time, Teng words looked up, his face solemn asked: left hand, pushed up the sleeves, she touched she gave me the Okanagan red string tie, suddenly to tears, The. Teng made
tears down, burned my hand, I wiped her tears, as in the same school, coax and said:
Teng has made them cry more and more powerful, until her phone rings, just stopped crying, she picked up the phone, looked at me, walked outside, do not guess, I also know that Teng made a call from her boyfriend, the room is small, sound insulation is not good, Teng made although it is soft, but I could hear, listen to her coquetry with the same tone of her boyfriend, control me, I ignore you, Teng made
take calls, I also laid the bed, I said to her: King City has been home, I went to sleep one night his house should be no problem. Teng made
face stiff a bit, asked:
will be forgotten? How could I forget? I do not know you before anything clear,UGG shoes, it can be like a mouse eating the honey, secretly glad to hold you to sleep. Now, you let me know how to deal with my mind already, have long been the general feeling I had not, but you still have a boyfriend?
house I went to King City's hold over his quilt, and then covered, and good in bed fairly large, sleeping two people no problem.
Teng words did not speak, only looked at me blankly action, biting his lips tightly, eyes getting wet together. See her this way, the pain in my heart up, hugged her gently, saying I can not even convincing reason:
Teng made
I patted on the back, so she went to wash, water too cold, afraid of her cold, I take a point out of the basin of cold water, then poured hot water against the inside, give her back on the foot-washing water to wash her socks, and so packed, I let her cover of my quilt, I covered King City. With a sudden quilt covers King City, I feel some awkward, uncomfortable, then one would like to also cover such a night, then nothing more. Teng
I made lying in bed, looking at the ceiling in a daze, did not seem to know what to say, after a long time, Teng made gently asked: the SMS, you do not return, why? . Teng made
side up, staring at me deeply, I turned, looked at her eyes, that eyes, crystal opacity Autumn Lake was like two, I seem to indulge in that one soon deep ri, we slowly close, very slow is slow, it seems that over the centuries in general, stick to the lips together at last.
ripples lot of attention in my heart, gently closed his eyes, heart felt lips touch the dough, Teng words rolling over my body, across the quilt, I actually heard her heartbeat, pound, like the sound of spring water in the river, so rapid, so nice.
Teng made the same as the newborn baby licked my lips, my tongue from time to time to describe the lip line, vague, and I seem to hear her say: you think of heart pain, Her delicate facial features are still pretty quiet, but a layer of dye pink cheeks. She looked at me as gentle, I was immersed in this sea of soft, long unable to extricate themselves.
came out of the window, I What is this? Primary Three What? Teng words have a boyfriend, in just her and her boyfriend was still very sweet call, I do, what sort? We do, what sort? Teng made
looked at me puzzled, with eyes hurt, I forced breath, rushed out a trace of her laugh, said:
heavy Teng made to lie down, close your eyes, and fell asked: I love you, I want to kiss you, love you, even eager to put their all to you all, but I do not want the third, do not want to see you in the middle of a dilemma, since you have the courage to choose, then, let I'll help you select it, all of this, you know?
I was about to turn out the lights, the door rang, I put on my slippers, ran to open the door, King City is not often elusive in my place, in addition to their promises, I can not remember who else.
25 I opened the door, it really was promised if she Qiaosheng Sheng stand in front of me, across my eyes and looked around. Cold front, I quickly let her in, my arms and asked: forward to, do not chilled, King City to me that you call yourself a man, so I'm all right, then come chat with you.
promises, spoke, he pushed me into the house,
Teng made this point already sat up, she saw their promises, froze a moment, then smiles:
Teng statement said:
promises, the same as if inadvertently looked at me and said:
You look inside, I lie down and so will be better.
I stared at her, asked: the second largest of the night, the time will live to me, squeeze me a blanket, I asked her my condition is so bad, why could not lay their own comfortable house, and I have to squeeze this break to bed, promises, Since you refuse to move now that I live, I had to rely on you that the. I had no option but took her, as this also bought her a new set of washing equipment.
I regret to see Teng words, said: Teng Jin Min
lips made, did not speak, just inside by the by, Xu Ruoli falling replaced pajamas, and quick wash finished, and then squeezed into the bed, change from her pajamas to bed before and after less than three minutes, speed direct drive rockets, and I made almost simultaneously Teng eyes wide open, looking at her trembling Kazakhstan with air juggle, until she got into my bed, I'm not able to slow off romance.
promises, came in first Jiuqi quilt sniffed, and asked: borrow.
I do not know why, together with their promises, I always like to damage her.
made chat, you go to the edge of, hurry.
I promise, if the body from under the rubs up against the bed, inadvertently touched her breasts, very soft, and my heart jumped a bit, and quickly recover the mind, a good rule of lying. Teng turned around to see made, some of her pale face looked at me, clutching the hand of a quilt will be tight, for a song, I was suddenly sad together, and I want to go to her promise, if nothing can be and do not know how to say, just look at their promises, and words Teng Chong shook his head, Teng words seemed to understand what I meant, and looked seems to relax into the hands of the quilt, and I was about to call out the tone, waist and was promised If a pinch, I promise, if puzzled look, she stared at me, once again down to my waist pinch, pinch one can tolerate, can tolerate two pinch, pinch three really unbearable, and I hard to bed by, and strive to how wide the Yellow River, I'll promise if so how wide left.
promises, and whispered words of chatting Teng work, chatting chores, I first listen to them talk excitedly, then God could not withstand the temptation to sleep, confused in the past, between the dim sense of promises, like me hugged, and I obey the turn over and rub the rub on her arms and fell asleep.
next day, I promise, if the Teng made to the station to the station before, Teng made and received a call from her boyfriend, she did not say anything this time, ah, two reports on the hanging , and Xu interesting to see if she look at me,UGG boots cheap, I turned away, out of sight out of mind.
to the station and their promises to stay in the car, did not talk to us later, Teng whispered words: We're just friends.
She looked down at my hand red string, wind eyelashes trembling, and asked:
Teng made feel of the exposed deep smile, with a sad smile in the bright, and she hugged me,
I patted her back, softly said:
a little lost,
Teng words away, leaving me back, I watched the car slowly passing in front of me, until no more it anyway. I know what Teng afraid of words, because I was afraid of was, this affection, the end is a bit too perverse. But, just because fear can miss your heart? Or, the heart never left, so I naturally afraid of?
mobile phone short message, I took out of view, is Teng words, she says, was believed to be eternal; have a look at breaking up the total, only to see that attachment; there is a feeling of total after the parting, is that it is lost. Liu Qi, how can I do? Teng words, I do not know how to do, fit, lose not open, can not forget, can not be broken, while a rain of friendship, the secular side is heavy, Teng words, how can we do? Why can not you afraid of? Now fear, and went to find a safe haven, and I want, not for you to be afraid, but you happier than me to understand it?
I looked up at the poplar tree not far away, almost bare tree branches hung with a few pieces scattered yellow leaves, cold winds, shake a few leaves, and fell quietly . Oh, falling leaves, is the abandoned tree, or the relentless wind?
Or just do not fight it leaves, I muttered.
touch face, Teng made the temperature is still left, but I already covered in the cold.
26 I stood there a long time and never moved. Promises, come to me, took my hand and got me.
the way I looked blankly out the window, nothing thought. Until the promises, stopped the car and I slowly back to God, and promises, said:
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